Yesterday, I talked to two different people about how I miss my passion. I miss getting my camera out and capturing the beauty around me. I miss getting paint out to create my own little masterpieces of what is swirling around in my mind. I miss crafts and projects!
But what made me put this on hold? What made me feel like I didn't have the time to do what I loved most? Stress. Distractions. Chaos. All of these things that Satan knew would keep me from being myself....he threw it all in front of me. From work to squeezing my wallet to unnecessary busyness....all of it was a distraction. He threw my insecurities in my face. And I believed him for a while.
It's time for a change. It's time for my passion to awaken again. It's time for my mind to be free of the distractions, stress and chaos. But it won't all be with the camera or paint. My life is a canvas...it's time to show the world the beauty God has placed in me. My passion isn't just about the camera and canvas. My passion is the people who smile and enjoy life around me. I want those around me to see the beauty around them.
How may I do that? That's still a work in progress. I'm praying about it and waiting to see what God reveals to me. But one thing is for sure: something WILL happen. I don't know when or where or how, but God has big plans. Bigger plans than I could ever imagine.
Awaken your passion! Awaken your soul! And never, ever let the chaos around you keep you from being you! Your life is a canvas....make something of it.
Wednesday, January 21, 2015
Thursday, January 8, 2015
DIY: The Frustration for Asking for Help
Last weekend I decided that I was going to change the windshield wipers on my car. I knew it was time when the wipers started to sound awful on my windshield. Determined to do it all by myself, I made a trip to the parts store and came home feeling a bit excited about my new adventure.
It took me two different times (about 20 minutes each time) just to take the old one off of the driver's side. The instructions were not very clear as to what I should have done. Plus, it was SUPER cold outside. I text a couple of my guy friends thinking "Hey...they're guys! And they have worked on cars before! They'll know what to do!" but still determined to do it on my own when they offered to come over when they had extra time to do so. After opening the new wiper blades for the drivers side, I learned that there are a few different types of hooks and such. My car has the "J hook". (Even today I'm not sure if it's the small or large J hook but at least I know more than I did before, right?!).
After many twists and turns, I gave up. It would not click. I was irritated and the feeling of failure struck. I wanted so badly to feel like I had accomplished this task on my own. I text one of the guy friends again and told him how I was feeling about the situation. He told me not only to chill but that it is fine to ask for help sometimes. I didn't want to ask for help because I am very capable of doing this on my own. I even sent him this silly pic of myself saying "I even look the part" followed by his response of "You look cute lol"
It took me two different times (about 20 minutes each time) just to take the old one off of the driver's side. The instructions were not very clear as to what I should have done. Plus, it was SUPER cold outside. I text a couple of my guy friends thinking "Hey...they're guys! And they have worked on cars before! They'll know what to do!" but still determined to do it on my own when they offered to come over when they had extra time to do so. After opening the new wiper blades for the drivers side, I learned that there are a few different types of hooks and such. My car has the "J hook". (Even today I'm not sure if it's the small or large J hook but at least I know more than I did before, right?!).
After many twists and turns, I gave up. It would not click. I was irritated and the feeling of failure struck. I wanted so badly to feel like I had accomplished this task on my own. I text one of the guy friends again and told him how I was feeling about the situation. He told me not only to chill but that it is fine to ask for help sometimes. I didn't want to ask for help because I am very capable of doing this on my own. I even sent him this silly pic of myself saying "I even look the part" followed by his response of "You look cute lol"
So, feeling discouraged, I found my way back to the parts store. The men there were super awesome about my ordeal. Turns out that the book that tells me what size of wipers I needed was wrong. I had bought the wrong size. And this turned out to be a blessing in disguise....they put the correct size wipers on and it saved me $10. I can't argue with that. Next time, I'll be more prepared....
So, the lesson I learned from this is that it's okay to ask for help even when I feel defeated. I've had this lesson many times in my life. This one is just a bit more light-hearted. And I'm thankful to have friends who believe in me, encourage me, push me, and support my decisions in the end.
I'm not a girly-girl by any means, nor am I a tomboy. But I do want to learn how to care for things I've been blessed with (i.e. car, house, mower, etc...). And sometimes, that means I have to get my hands dirty. I'm thanking God for soap and hand sanitizer though. But it also means that I need to ask for help sometimes. I know I'll learn even by watching.
And yes, I did look cute. :)
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